Little Skittle

After I feed Jack, he gurgles when he breathes, like really wet breaths. He isn’t choking, and he doesn’t spit up. Are these little gurgle-y breaths normal after feeding?

Haha, the last few days have been absolutely crazy!

Time to update everything, methinks. c:

On Monday, March 19, I went in as usual to my appointments. I was seen by my OB, and was 3 cm dilated, 50% effaced. He told me that my induction was on the 27th, if I didn’t go into labor before then. After that, I had my ultrasound. One of the techs took a look at the breathing, then checked the fluid. She left the room and returned with the head of the U/S department, who looked at me, and paged my OB.

Apparently, my fluid was critically low, and I needed to get over to Labor and Delivery for induction. Things sped on from there. I was brought over, checked out, then hooked up to an IV to get the ball rolling. Tristian came, and he and I chatted while I waited for things to start up. I went from feeling nothing for three hours, to feeling these strong contractions that were 2 minutes apart. It only got worse from there. I lasted 10 hours from the induction before I decided to get the epidural. It was very uncomfortable with the contractions, and I was exhausted. And poor Tristian was getting upset by seeing me in that much quiet pain.

After that, I was in labor four more hours or so until they told me it was time to push. I didn’t feel a thing! I pushed him out in under an hour (and tore myself pretty bad), and before I knew it, little Skittle, who’d been in my tummy for nine months was in my arms.

He was absolutely stunning. Tristian and I couldn’t believe it. We both cried. He came about from some act of love, and this was the proof and it was amazing. Even if we aren’t together, its still incredible to see. And he helped through the whole thing! He’s super squeamish, and he basically watched everything while guiding me to push and holding my leg for me, and encouraging me with quiet little “keep pushing!”s. Overall, it was a super smooth, super nice delivery. I must have been lucky!

John Marshall was 20.8 inches long, and weight 7 pounds, 11 ounces. He is the most beautiful creature on this planet, and I am absolutely in love with him. I can’t get enough of him.

And having him home is a pleasure. Aside from his night fussies, he’s such a joy. Quiet, he likes his swing, loves to be held. He can even pick his head up. He’s alert, will look at you if you talk to him, and his eyes will follow you if you walk by. He’s just amazing me more and more.

I also had success with breast feeding after an experience attempting today when my milk finally came in that left me sobbing quietly into my pillow because it had upset me so much. He was SCREAMING. And my aunt who is a nurse, and my mum were completely calm trying to get him to latch, while I was freaking out. But the second attempt, which I did by myself, went so much more smoothly and I’m so pleased and happy now. 

He has his first appointment tomorrow with the pediatrician just to see how things are coming along with him. 

I really had lost hope in everything to be honest. I was so sad, so heart broken, so everything. Then out came Skittle and I just feel… I can’t even describe it. I’m so in love with this baby. I can’t. I just love him so much.

tried feeding again. it was a HUGE success!! i feel sooo much better c:

my milk finally came in

but i’m having trouble getting him to latch

and he’ll scream and cry while I try and it makes me feel awful

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It’s the first night home.

Everything went swimmingly until about… 9 pm or so. He started screaming, and wouldn’t stop. I did everything I could— checked his diaper, tried to feed him some more, rocked, sang, soothed—

Turns out the formula supplied me with is giving him really bad and uncomfortable gas.

I’ve been trying to breast feed, but he’s not getting nearly enough from me, and he’s still starving afterward. Sometimes he’ll latch, and other times he simply refuses to. He gets frustrated with me easily, and then he’ll get so worked up that he’s impossible to calm until he gets the formula.

My mom ran out to get Mylocin (spelling?) drops for his feedings to see if it helps, then I’m going to see someone Saturday about the breast feedings and the gas.

I’ve slept 7 hours since last Sunday total, I’m so worried about my fussy, gassy baby.

He just gets so red and screams and cries and looks so uncomfortable, I just don’t know what to do.